you're just what I need.
Not everything works as it seems
sometimes it's so hard to believe.

its weird how you can go from seeing a person nearly everyday, to not seeing them at all. with no explanation as to why this had occurred. i assume we're still friends, at least on my half we are, and if she/he thinks otherwise at least an explanation would be cool.

i know breaking my phone and losing all my numbers hasn't really aided my keeping in touch abilities with those i really wanted to this summer(read:Lauren, Jeremy, Alanna, etc.) but its not all one sided.

i don't know. i need a job to keep my mind off these things and these people.

call me-
Brandon.

so i wasn't really drunk but i guess if you want to blame it on that you can. however i saw my opening and i took it. i told her how i felt and where i wanted us to be. and obviously as the rational vagina that i am i told her that while i am deeply attracted to her, there is nowhere for this relationship to go and we are better of as very good friends. she agreed and slowly hinted at the fact that she too was atrracted to me, which in reality was all i really wanted to hear. cause liking someone who doesn't like you back is totally the pits. so those of you cheering us on, that is how the status shall remain, and i couldn't be happier.

however, during this apparently my car got towed. that was pretty sweet right? yeah not so much. Cam felt as if it was all her fault, she paid. she didn't have too and in retrospect i shouldn't have let her (lets just say it was a lot). which brings to thinking on why towing for parking violations is even needed. The is not a profession, and if you ever happen to turn into one of those guys i will unfriend you for life. Making money of peoples misfortune and accidental parking errors is no way to live your life. Yes i do praise you for picking up dead cars off the side of the highway, but for towing me in an empty parking lot i have no pity on your soul. so burn in hell tow man. also to make up for it im pretty cleaning her apartment while she's at work, i'd have to say im pretty baller at this kinda stuff.


peace in the middle east-
brandon w.

life has a funny way of giving you exactly what you want then ripping right back away from you.

it sucks when you know you can't put it all out on the table.

fuck you college station. you did this to me. TWICE

im done pissing my life away on this deathbox. it has brought me nothing but terrible feelings. there is a world outside of me that i have shut myself off to for so long.

this summer will be different. im done with this.


pray for me eh?
brandon.

cam told me to write something here, but since im such a great listener i completely forgot what. i assume it had something to do with how much shes in love with me. or how maybe shes not a heart breaker....i really don't know.

school is done. im not looking forward to the grades but hey, its only a semester.


krystle! its the first week of summer and i swear if you have to "work" another Saturday morning im going to punch you in the ovaries. i need to geeet shit housed. cant wait for yo birfday either. when is it exactly?

i needed a 100 for a C.


walking out of the test room i realized i missed one that i had been second guessing. well....id need to fail the mid tern to NOT make a D. i know i made an easy high B or low A. do maybe by some divine justice the teacher will shine his grace down upon me and bump it up? i mean seriously....its math, no one majors in math, just give me my grade and let me go about my business.


anyways. since im rocking out in 2 of my 4 classes i can still manage above a 2.0 (yeah i know its shit, but im not here to impress you) which should keep me out of trouble this semester....but damn i'll be border line. I haven't talked to my advisor, but for some reason im assuming if i retake them and Ace them the grades will get replace? i feel like im crazy for thinking this but i know i heard it somewhere. that would right this terribly sinking ship.

i want to be done with these core shit classes and get on to what i like doing....notice im making A's in those classes. yeah, college should be more that, not math and english.


anyways, i haven't got much sleep and i still have some extra credit to type before i start studying for my exam tomorrow night..

With love,
Brandon "will never graduate" Wodke.