i work with the illest motherfuckers ever. i love my job! hangin out every night and shit

tomorrow its something with meg and shannon >.< cant wait.

you know, this might be the first time i write something and have real way of opening it. by now im sure most who read this are aware of my former on again, off again feeling for camille. well since i think i finally got over her, started my new job and well, had no free time its seems ive been replaced nearly completely. She has some new guy, and really, thats totally cool with me. its just funny everytime she talks about what they did it just sounds like she's describing us hanging out 2 months ago. The she goes yeah, but its different. She hesitates as if im going to go berserk the moment i find out she been messing around with the guy (something i've known for awhile now). but yeah she simply states "you(me) are like a good friend who i know really well, and he's like a good friend...with benefits." thats good and all, but i think this guy should be thanking me and shaking my hand for allowing him to make out with this girl. why you say? 1. i told her to stick with hooters( as did her mom, but i was there first) after she tried to quit the second day. and finally, had i man'd up and acted on my feelings and made a move 3 months ago instead of pushing it all inside cause i knew one day she'd move, you'd just be another cook that used to work at hooters. This only reaffirms what krystle told me, as much as Camille denies it to this very day(why i still really dont know)

However, thats really just a foot note on this, because just as reason two states, she'd one day be leaving. as of 4 am this morning i found out that leaving is in fact on Saturday. And to be honest, it still suck alot. I thought it would make it easier, but now instead of losing some girl i've made out with all summer, im losing a really good friend. i wish the last few week had been like our first few weeks. i hate that we've drifted apart right before she leaves. i've put myself all out on the table and after maybe tomorrow i've pretty much said all i need to so she not leaving with me still feeling like there is something i should have said. it'll be weird going to visit her, if i do. i already told her that if she comes up to visit and just hang out with her new boy toy and not me id be kinda pissed.

Also i like a girl at work. shes awesome. THATS ALL YOU GET KRYSTLE! DEAL WITH IT. but lets be honest, i always have a crush on someone. im such a flirt >.<


not much more to say really. just thought id throw it out there.

Denton is love,
Brandon.

and she was buzzin all over me
like she fell in love.

problem solved i guess.

id love to explain but im not in a writing mood. its fine i guess. more of a "hey water under the bridge" kinda thing.

but im over it and her fully. glad i can finally be friends with her. just dont ditch me again fag.

i guess i have a problem. it hasn't been discussed so im left with this awkward bitter feeling. perfect blogging mood right? right!

and since calls made between my phone and Krystle's some how end up in the void of nothingness instead of reaching their intended destination i figured the fastest way to contact her is through this medium. sad, i know.

Anyways, enough about that pointless back story shit. PROBLEM TIME. So i got this friend, Camille (yes, thats her actual name. i spare no one), and she was going to come see me, Brandon (see.) at work tonight. So i got cut early shift so i went home and she called and we talked and she seemed excited to come. got directions and everything so it was fully on. Then she kinda mentions that some Canadians from work(customers, not actual staff) offered to take her to a strip club in a limo. She tells me she just blew them off and was still coming out after a few jokes here and there about it. So im at work, stressed kinda cause i got a 14 top on patio that was just busting my balls on everything. ON TOP of a kitchen that just completely killed all of us servers with terrible service. i wonder if shes coming in to see me. i look down at my phone to see if she has said anything about being on the way or something. this is what i get,(word for word) " Hey i think i might come see you thurs. Night i promise i'll tip well(smiley face)" So apparently i was the only one joking about her going on a stretch hummer ride out to dallas with some fucking random guys who come into hooters. Cause as i just found out, she wasn't joking. So thus leads to my predicament. What do these guys have that i don't? the answer, for all of you dumbs, is obvious. a stretch limo. Now that got me thinking, what do i have that these guys dont. oh yeah! her fucking friendship. now for most of you the choice is clear. but for the rest of you, whose company can easily be bought with stretch whatevers(yeah theres a sex joke in there) YOU CHOSE WRONG! im glad our friendship took a back seat to some randoms with a fancy car. it lets me know where i stand in this, cause i guess i thought more of you than that. Especially today cause i was stressed like all hell. and here you come telling me how much fun you're having with these guys and how much i should see the pictures. WHY WOULD I WANT TO SEE PICTURES?!? i don't need to see how much fun you had ditching me.

look, i might be all by myself on this one here, but frankly, i don't give a damn. I don't ask for much in the good friends (the few) that i have (which for my part i assumed we were). for anyone who has known me longer than maybe a day could easily tell you what it is. Loyalty. its simple, you make plans with me, keep em. don't run off with someone with a bigger anything. we've had conversations about this plenty of times(in varrying forms ofcourse) Maybe i just have higher expectations on some things. maybe im completely wrong about this whole thing. i doesn't change how i feel about it though.


so if any of you reading this out there have any advice, comments, shoutouts(?) or whatever, just let me know.


oh and i finished my last post.