i feel like since i tried so hard last year to write that i should also try hard to write this year. you know, at least once out of my years of existence i will have documented a month of time in which to look back on my feeling and emotions of the time. anything that lapses inbetween is thus rendered inconsiquential. so on that note here is the important stuff going on that i can one day look back upon.

hi brandon, its me 1 year ago, you work at blue goose and you have a good time, theres this girl that your really good friends with. hell what am i saying, you're friends with everyone. but back to the point. her name is val. shes awesome and funny and argueably the most carring person you've met to date (outside of krystle, but she is disqualified for working at CCA.) its odd to think that we can make each other mad when we both keep saying we want to be friends. maybe there is something more than this going on. she knows, and has for awhile how i have felt, but sometimes its hard to read her intentions. one day you're strung along for the ride, being reeled closer to youre ultimate goal, only to be cast out again for another try someother day. but thats really just kinda on the side

you're still in UNT, and should be by the time you read this again. you've finally figured out what you want to do and are wicked exited about it, as shown by the stupidly awesome grades you made last semester. im proud of you and hope you havent fucked it up by now. hey, only one semester left now right? anyways, past me will try not to fail you.

also, if you still know this girl name trish this time next year, you can thank me later. love ya man.


forever my own,
brandon james wodke.

i hate how generic and cryptic my posts have become as of late. Lets be honest, the only people who read this semi-religiously are krys and chris. on that note i may as well hold nothing back, cause it would be hella gay to lie about my life to a blog no one reads.

Looking back on some of the writing i did from 12 months ago i realized that maybe i do have some insight into things outside of my own. anyways here and oldie but goodie! this is like a clip show on TV, you know, the one where the writers can't think of anything to do so they give you 5 mins of story and 25 mins of old clips that have nothing to do with anything.

"90's teen date movies. my only vice (outside of drinks of the alcoholic ilk.) its kinda just what i've been wishing for all my life. That i could go up to the person i truly loved, tell them exactly how i feel and at that very moment they'd realize that the one person they've been looking for all this time was right under their nose and they loved me in return. i really don't even know if thats close to how i wanted it to sound but you know the feeling. like everything just works out so perfect for everyone, except the brooding jock football star.

in my perfect world thats how everything would be. or maybe filled with choreographic dance numbers but thats for another time and place.

sadly this world is run by other less savory things than truth and romance. so with that i leave you to your own devices. tell that someone how you really feel. if you don't you may be walking away from something great that you've both wanted....or you just crash and burn and all your dreams go up in smoke, but this is a happy post, so thats not allowed to happen."